Three Major Goals -- from now until the end of the year

Lazy Boy -- wow!

I have not kept up/started what I know I need to be doing everyday. I feel I'm entering round two of all of this, and I'm afraid I won't be able to take myself to a new level of auditioning and performing . . . yet, visions for what I want for myself, where I want to be, who I want to be, are becoming more frequent and more clear -- this is something that I've got to have, so subconsciously, something very positive seems to be happening.

OK -- here's what's scheduled between now and the end of the year: 3 major goals & deadlines:

Auditioning for 13th Street Rep. on 11 . 22 . 05, 4 weeks from now. Will do a two minute monologue, Gabe from Dinner With Friends, about what it means to see the past behind you, and the future in front of you, to realize that they are probably equal now in duration . . . and now what do you do? A great monologue -- if I can find it's real truth and do that truth justice, that will be a big accomplishment. Also, I want to do very well at this audition. In fact, my goal is to make it my best audition to date. I want to perform at a level that I haven't reached yet. I want to work with Tom to prepare for the audition -- he's a highly experienced and skilled audition coach. (Interestingly, the first production of Dinner With Friends was in N.Y.C., '99, and directed by Daniel Sullivan, head of the Theatre Arts Department at UIUC).

Scene Showcase at Weist-Barron: 12 . 12 . 05 , 12 . 14 . 05 & 12 . 15 . 05. Howard, a two-person from William Inge's Picnic. Invited audience + 5-10 industry professionals (gulp!). This doesn't seem to be part of WB's regular showcase series (which is a big deal), so I'll need to ask JZ exactly what the deal is. Nevertheless, it'll be a challenging scene, at least for me. I've been reading a great book, Stanislavski In Rehearsal by Vasili Toporkov, a book that provides a first-hand account of rehearsals for the Moscow Arts Theatre under the direction of Konstantin Stanislavski -- it's an "acting journal," similar to what I'm trying to do here. I have no formal training in The Method (yet one of my goals is to become a life-time member of the Actor Studio here in N.Y.C., that would be great artistic achievement), but I understand enough of it, and it's a great account of how KS actually worked with his actors. The foundation of his "Method," I think, lay in the fact that he was a amazing observer of life and could import aspects of the real world (i.e., how people really behave) into rehearsal. That's the key to "The Method:" it grounds the actor in an objective truth, i.e., how people really behave. Application of The Method demands great observational and imaginative skills. So . . . I will start there.

New head shots. I'm not sure when, but before the end of the year. One problem is that I simply don't know what to do with my hair. It's long, people really like it (I like it), but it makes it hard to cast me. I'm going to an image consulting seminar on 11 . 17 . 05. Perhaps bring a bit more style into my life in addition to further helping to define my industry type and category . . .