More Monologue-Audition Notes

Audition Prep: 1st) physical voice warm up, intone, journal of the thought, etc. whatever I think I need to do 2nd) Review -- "breathe in" the vertical, the deep meaning, then let it all go.

Audition Notes: Starting is still difficult for me -- the most important step is still the hardest. Rehearse a simple task, a simple way to start -- use that to center and focus me. Also, I'm still rushing the beginning, the moment before. Remember that great monologue audition with Vanya at The Impact -- remember how I just spontaneously, organically took me time? It was completely unplanned, as if the gods loved me that night and gave me a great gift, but I think I just focused and took my time without worrying about or being conscious of starting -- usually I feel awkward and self-conscious, and I tend to rush starting the monologue. This is so hard for me, yet it was perfect that night. Practice each day doing that, whatever that was ...

Audition death -- certain death: trying to recall memories and images that will make be feel. I can either do what the character/monologue/words are doing or I can be trying to drive the performance from the outside, from the "top-down."